The Journey

Since August 2011 I have been considering the question “who am I?” I have sometimes thought I have the answer; even now I ponder the question despite having “an answer” One thing is sure, I am not who I thought I was and neither is the world nor my fellow brothers & sisters I share it with. I have learnt that almost all of us lie to ourselves, most spend their whole lives living "there" from Birth until death, from doorway to doorway sincerely believing the lies that we tell ourselves, over and over again, so much so that anything else seems impossible to us, welcome to Ego (SIN) Let me tell you a story about a frog called Mark. This particular frog was born in a deep well. He lived with lots of other frogs, some happy, some grumpy, some old, some young, some wealthy and some poor, all going about doing what frogs do. Mark was not a particularly bright frog, He had lived in the well for a year or so, (frog years and human years are very different) Mark often wondere...

I have been asking friends who are not yet believers of Jesus what the word king means to them and here are just a few of the responses Burger King – The King of Burgers Michael Jackson – The King of Pop Mars Bars – King Sized of course Elvis – The King of Rock and Roll A ruler – A king of a Country We of course do not have a King in this Country do we, but a Queen and if you are under the age of 59 (as of November 2011) you will never have known a King, the last being King George. I had a look at the Royal Website this week to understand the role of The Queen and this is what it says. The Queen represents the Nation at times of Great Celebration and Great Sorrow, The Queen is the Head of State, The Queen is the Head of the Armed Forces, and The Queen is the Head of the Church of England, all of which are important symbolic unifying roles that the Queen personally reinforces through the Commonwealth, joining people together from around the world. The Queens primary role is to h...

Still in Chapter 1 of the book in which we are also asked to write an Obituary Notice about our life, write one we would like to read without thinking too much about it.. Seems kind of creepy but I would actually encourage anyone to do it. Obituary Notice – Mark James – Dead at 90 – Buried at 90 Mark James was a humble Man of God, a loving Husband to Samantha and an equally loving Father to his Children. Mark and Samantha as well as the boys went through a transformation when Mark was in his early 40’s. He went through what he described as an ‘awakening.’ Through Inspire and various influential persons Mark was discovering that much of his life had been a lie and his mind was transformed. Mark was a man on a path toward Ordained Ministry although by his own admission Mark often struggled with this through his lack of worthiness, this of course went on to be the very essence of his life.  Mark went on to discovered what it meant to be a true follower of Jesus following a one yea...

I am following a book at the moment called God of Surprises. At the end of each Chapter we are set exercises. The 1st is to study the after effects of daydreaming... For me, at this point in time I have no job. A decision I took upon myself. I was in the wrong place, doing the wrong things, deceiving myself (the true me). My current daydreams contain a mixture of fears and of hopes, hopes for a new chapter, a chapter where “I” can be, but fear (driven by flesh) of having made a bad choice in leaving.  Most must think me mad to give up a well paid job without having at least something to go too; “maybe they are right” screams the flesh. It is also scarier in that I do not have a large nest egg to rely on or indeed rich parents (screams the flesh). At this point in time I suspect I will be able to survive until approx mid Sept financially, so around a month. Now I am feeling slightly madder! My comfort though is this; I have been told that to follow God with all my heart requ...

There is a truth that I have come to realise over the last few weeks and that is this. I am not who I thought I was so who am I? (This is not a mid life crisis nor is it a meltdown) This is an awakening and it is exciting, my life from this point has a new dimension, a new depth, new possibilities I had not seen before. I plan to explore and share it fully with anyone who wants to join along the way and may it be of encouragement to you also. This is a kind of Journal – During this next year I want to get to know the real me, the I AM that is unique, who was created. I want to offer to you what I find, and learn because as you read this you are probably thinking “Well I know who I am” so Why do I think this at all? When I am asked "tell me about you” I typically respond with what I do for a Job, I talk about my interests, my children, the car I drive, my address etc? It seems I am not alone in this, maybe it is just a man thing, time will tell! The reality though is I am no...